submission is not giving up autonomy. submission is the *choice* to align with Her and prioritize Her. to devote myself fully. because that's where i find fulfillment. i choose in the face of stress, fatigue, and impulse just like anyone else. and sometimes i still fail because i ultimately choose to. and i do my best to own it, to learn from it, and to act with more integrity going forward. so i don't lose autonomy.