Man, I don't think you're that special. I think everyone has a vice, something used to cope with the pain of physical reality. These vices vary in their compulsiveness & destructive nature. Some may not even consider them vices, eg exercise, romance novels, cigarettes, cannabis, alcohol, caffeine, sex, chocolate, Twitter, etc. I like to choose my vices rather than have them sneak in through the back door (eg doom scrolling).