I hear ya. I constantly remind myself that I do not know the hour, but to always be ready as it will come like a thief in the night. And of course that Christ is already victorious. I’m partial to a fractal view of eschatology, that the larger spiritual battle is not bound by time (which is fallen, inseparable from death), hence we see these repeated patterns throughout history, but it also is culminating into an actual and specific event (in time, or rather the end of time). Jesus described it as “birth pains”, and the early church fathers (Augustine, Chrysostom, etc) talked about these birth pains reverberating throughout time but ultimately outside of (and transcendent to) time. I find this is a very useful frame, and not the modern mechanistic understanding where we can’t imagine it being anything other than a specific date on the calendar (which if we’re not careful leads to despondency), rather than all dates across all times all simultaneously ending.