ironically too, sometimes it goes in very strange ways. my mother was given morphine during labor with me. this led to me coming out blue. the doctors jabbed me and slapped me and flipped me upside down. this baked in a ragdoll reflex because i had no substantial strength anyway so my nervous system just said "fine, kill me then" and it didn't happen. then my father tried to suffocate me with a pillow once. i have recalled this one twice now. that didn't work because i learned to submit to unyielding pressure. then in 2013, bulgarian police pounded my head repeatedly on the pavement because they didn't even consider actually letting me just give them my hands directly to cuff, instead they roughly flipped me, broke my ribs, smashed my head 7 times, and it didn't kill me because i went slack, my head hit on my "horn" points on my forehead and rolled, dispersing the force. again, because i had learned to submit to unyielding pressure. so, sometimes your trauma becomes a shield. but eventually it makes it impossible to connect, and you have to connect to thrive. ironically, in all of this, the central point of damage is malformed neck vertebra. all i have to do is persistently do accupressure on the point between the top protruding spinal bone and my skull on a regular basis, and do exercises stretching my neck in every direction. other than that, i was already doing everything to compensate. smoking cigarettes is compensatory for the problems caused by distorted bones in the upper neck. cannabis is the best hitting 5 different spots at once. hot baths are good. heat packs on the back of the neck are good. float tanks and just floating in water is helpful by taking pressure off and letting the bones rotate and everything that reduces the pressure against the spinal cord allows the system to recover, and after 7 years, the problem can resolve. probably some kind of genetic therapy involving stimulating the bones to soften and re-grow would accelerate it but 7 years ain't so bad. just one day of doing the accupressure and neck movement exercise and my vision has improved almost 50% this was caused by that. it will turn out that all of it is caused by that, the celiac, the asthma, the anxiety, depression, the vision problem. the foods don't help, but the structural fault is one primary site.